A Lonely Little Boy

just another post ........

2009-09-17T23:43:00.002+08:00

its been a long time since's i've updated my blog ...... anyways
its seems to me the lack of communication between us is a becoming worst
hah...... i finally can let go .... but i still hav a feeling of missing her in a way la hiaz.... what to do, it has to be this way .... she doesnt like ppl to disturb her but i dont really believe it la .... only me la hehe.... dont really know what is she thinking about la ...... haiz ... KEEP MOVING thats all is needed to be done la hah ....... now is like i can only watch from a distance .... but cant go near .... hah... sounds weird la ...... hah..... its a good experience for me in a way the first time i took a long period to get over something ...... i will not forget the memories ..... hehe ..... hahaha ... I'm being too emo now ..... ok lets cut the topic ..... not long ago i started getting addicted to girls generation
they all are so .............. cute and hot man hahahahahahahah............

Boring Holidays .......

2009-06-06T00:12:00.002+08:00

Yo ppl wassup .... two weeks of holidays is really killing me man
really got nothing to do man
now miss school man WTH man ......... darn boring man .......
Haiz... cant go out
cannot even use MSN man i wanna die man ......
My life is dam boring la
need more interesting activity to do man ...
..... too many dots already man ...... dam boring

Science camp

2009-06-01T22:59:00.004+08:00

yo ppl today was really fun cuz of the camp
these ar pic
tht i manage to only take with my camera hehehe very little only

Uncles wedding

2009-05-31T16:27:00.005+08:00

Sorry ...... ppl for not updating my blog ..... been very busy
hehehe...... ya
last Friday i went back to penang to attend my uncle's wedding....... these where the photos i took with my video cam ......

heres a few photos of me also
and my bro

just another day

2009-04-04T19:00:00.003+08:00

Hmh.... i finally put anend to this rumor ...She actually doesn't like me ..hehe... So next thing is begood frens hehehe..... man today was a tiring day man SPORTS DAY !! man ..... i ran and over starin my leg muscle and fell down at the finshing line ...... could not get up at all ... thanks tomy frens ...they helped me up ... after that.... when and yamcha with bro and an old pretty fren ..... we talked for quite a while ...... then went cyber alone ...... .. ya not to for get that fellow has gottten bitchyer and bitchyer by the second ..... now its like that fellow is firlting around .... man it is just not like her well i'll just think that i never knew her .......

Man i'm pissed

2009-02-27T17:02:00.003+08:00

Haiz ...... God damn it i just feel like blowing off when i here the way that fellow laugh and talks lame jokes ... i'm really sick of it , i want to change place man !!! Don't know why that fellows voice seem so irritating... agrr...... plus when that fellow gives to everyone is also fucking irritating man .. Its even more irritating when that fellow laughs ... i want to scold and slap that fellow nicely man if i got the chance too... then i'm satisfied....

a day

2009-02-27T16:49:00.004+08:00

today , i seem to forgotten totally about a person .. man i m relieved ..... OMG i hate add maths its killing me ... i met Three new frens a few days ago .. well they are form 1 hehehe they seem very friendly .. plus my basketball skills seem too be suckyer everyday .. don't know what happened to me

Happy Valentines Day

2009-02-27T16:46:00.001+08:00

Today is valentines day and I wish everybody in the world to have a really happy valentine …. And make sure that your love ones are the best ones you have ever met make them feel like there are they are important to you not only today but everyday …. And those who are single is not a very sad thing if you don have a partner … you have the best people beside you .. which is your family …. And I also wish that my good friend Jerome successfully achieves what he is going for … hehehe jerome good luck ..
And also I wish my friend kah hoe and his partner a happy valentines day .. .. same goes to wai choeng , yuet nam , jin jien , alynna , and my bro …… I guess they will have a good time today ….. I’m happy for them ……

My life

2009-02-27T16:29:00.004+08:00

With every passing day , I’m beginning to dislike her more and more ….. I feel like going away from this school and do not want to see her …..nowadays I’m starting to feel a feeling of discomfort in my class…. It just seems like everyone has really totally change or seems different ….now I’m just feeling left out in everyway…. Everyone in class seems to have a group to be fit in but I don’t ….. they think I’m always doing dumb things but how about them ….. when I do something wrong they will scold me like it was world war two …. But if another fellow does a much more worse thing then me they just let it be and laugh at it ….. I just don understand looks like I was right that I’m always one step behind of everybody I know ….. I feel like going away and start a new life …..
Sometimes I just feel like ending my life as fast as possible since my life is as meaning less as nothing …in everyone’s eyes dust which is always never wanted anywhere …I’ve just no talent in anything ..the things which I know how to do ,other people knows it and better yet does it better then me …so eventually there is nothing good about me …my life is just a waste of time and space in this whole wide world …Worse of all I do not even have an interest in anything I just do not understand myself .. is that hard being me ???.. I sometimes will envy my friend lenjin because he just seems to fit into any group he runs into even though he acts retarded most of the time …as days past now, it feels like I’m just away from everybody ….there’s nothing left for me to do in this world …it is just like god created me with no purpose ….what’s the use of living when you do not even have a purpose to life …… everybody just treats me as a ridiculous clown which is for pushing around but why are they bullying other people when they themselves are pieces of rubbish …life is just meaning less to me now …. I’m just really a hopeless thing

after the china new year

2009-02-07T19:39:00.001+08:00

hihi everybody ........ wow after the china new year everyone in my class seems to be alot more richer then before .... accept me hehe ... cuz i did not even count how much i got ...... my mum kept it all for me .... no.....!!!!!! she controled my finacial needs so i m really broked now .......Man its hard to get materails to make a valentines gift ........ darn it so i hav to spend wisely with wat ever i have rite now ...haiz ....... actually i m ready too aproach her but i m afarid that she will ...... be too shy and then everything will turn out bad when she is too shy to even talk to me ....... haiz i just hope that it will jus go as i planned .... so thats all .....

another boring day in penang

2009-01-30T00:35:00.003+08:00

hello ppl to day, my bro my cous and i went to my aunts new house to help my uncle paint the house , it was very fun we got paint all over our shirt and pants , ....... well when we came back i took a shower and then played mahjong .... i won ...muahhahahahah.....and today i meet this cute little girl .......online and with her for hours it was fun making new frens hehehehe .....

Happy chinese New year Every one

2009-01-27T23:34:00.003+08:00

Hello ppl ...... its been a while since i ve updated my blog ..... so first of all i would like to wish everyone a happy and prospers Chinese new year to everyone ..... ya today i went to the penang temple with my mum .. i went to visit where else i can say to pray to my grandfather and other relatives .... it was blazing hot today there where just the sun and no clouds at all with my new hair cut, i really can't stand the heat here in penang ...... after my mum and was done ..... we went to my aunts new house which is under renovation ...... then i help a little here and there while i was inside ....... then later on i went to tesco with my mum , bro & gf , and my aunt ....... to buy the stuff for the bbq in the nite ...... it was fun shopping with them ........ hehehehe ..... Wow i really didnt know i knew how to marinade all the food ...... it turn out very nice and delicious .... accept for the beef the marinade was nice but we didnt really knew how to cook it heeheh...... so in conclusion i can say that this was the most fun and successful ... BBq i have ever handled heheheehehe ....... thats all

memories

2008-12-31T01:26:00.001+08:00

A memory
A moment to share
Will always be in your mind no matter what

Good memories
A time we enjoy
When we where happy
When we where together

Sad memories
A time when there was argument
When the Sky turns Grey
When some one you love lives

Every moment you spent with your loved ones are important no matter i was bad or good
it must be always remembered as a memory ........

learning

2008-12-23T19:04:00.000+08:00

hei ppl thanks for your support ........i think i know wat to do and solve this matter......... i think i ve learn how to let go of hard relationships ........ is really hard though but i ve been trying it these few days it hurts actually but if thatis the only way i will just have too................

2008-12-09T17:10:00.000+08:00

Its always seem to rain when there’s a problem happening …….. I just don seem to get why every time when one problem is solved another problem just seem to pop up again so it’s a never ending thing ……..Hi ppl for the past few days I was thinking about how to make this situation …… so ppl if you have a solution , pls leave a comment ………… i just have no more idea left ……… hehehe……don think I m emotional or anything but t just need other ppls advice ………….. heheheh ……………

The problem seem to be a certain thing that really troubles me all the time and it doesn’t seem to fade away and very hard face it I just really don understand why does the problem keep coming and will never stop ……. If there is anyway how to stop this nightmare …… it really seems to rain when you are sad or you have a difficulty ……. Hehehe maybe it just doesn’t meant to be I’m not sure to give it all up and move on or try to solve it ……. I just really need help from ppl ……………. I’m just a confused person ………….. maybe I’m just not meant for this kind of things ……. Hehee…..
I just don know what to do .... should I just leave it alone or go and face the problem …………

A hungry day

2008-12-02T16:26:00.000+08:00

hihi ppl is me again ........ last nite i was really really sick i had a high fever ....... and had to go shopping with my aunt and cousins ........... after that we went dinner with my uncles cilent ....... he took us to eat seafood in Puchong....... the food was nice but i didnt get ot enjoy it cuz of my fever...... here are pics of the food.......

the dessert........ The fish we ate .........

Me & younger cousins eudren and eunice

me and my cousin sis

after that we went home and ................ i was a but too die cuz of my fever...... my head was as heavy as .......... jerome .........
This morning i woke up ...... i was filling alot better back my back hurts ...........
after that i then took my uncle to sentral plaza .... to do some arangement with some company.......... then we ate lunch in KL sentral ........

Mmmm.... spaggettie

More spaggettie.........
The end.......

A boring Day

2008-12-01T16:07:00.000+08:00

Wow ........ today is the most boing day ever ...... My aunt came down with my uncle for a meeting so had to follow them to midvalley....... i walk almost the whole of midvalley man i was so bored so i decided to go to starbucks to surf the net

Boring so took some photos

me ..............

This drink cosed me 15 bugs ouch ............

i all so took the christmas decorations here in midvalley

Help...............................................

lonely me

2008-11-27T16:44:00.000+08:00

hihi world .............. my life is very boring and jerome will say its retarded rite jerome ?????
actually this world has alots ups and downs ........ there is always a question in my head .....
is growing up or staying at your age is a good thing ...............
i still cant find wht im really intersted in ..... this world just seems very hard
i m a adventuras person and some times maybe too hyper over some thing many ppl says i have a attitude problem ............ and ask me to change ......... how i wish to change to a person that everyone can like ............
sometimes i just hope that everything will go easy in my life ............
its just unfair when each and everyone i know has i a talent and i don ........ its just seems like i m just a waste of space in this world ............ i m always one step behind everybody i know ............its just seems so sad ..........haiz.....